" I am the Lord. I change not." Malachi 3:6

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

It's Official

Well this weekend was awesome!!! Yes awesome! It was extremely productive with work, a lot of weed pulling...(Did I mention I normally don't do yard work at all...) and amazing time with the boys. I had so much fun with noah and ky..we played on the trampoline..hung out on the deck and chatted and just over all had a wonderful weekend! I couldn't sleep Saturday so I got up at 3:30 am and worked on some paperwork for a bit and then headed over to Walmart at 4:15 to pick up a pair of gardening gloves and then to my grocery store that I love, because it is open 24 hours a day and bought leaf bags and lawn bags...and then spent from 5am-8am pulling weeds and putting Chad's grass clipping mound into 10 leaf bags. Yep..I was anxiously waiting for my offer on Monday and needed to stay busy. So in the mean time I worked hard on our backyard and was done by 8:00 Sunday morning. Chad was a little (alot) concerned because I have NEVER touched anything having to do with our yard...I kill all plants. Monday morning came and I had a conference call with the manager I interviewed with and other individuals from corporate regarding the integration I'm working on and then three hours later....I received the call i've been waiting for and was officially offered the position at our headquarters!!!! God is so good. I'm humbled beyond words at the opportunity he has put in my path and can't tell you how evident His hand has been in this whole process!!!!! Not to sound cliche but it has been a complete "God Thing" from start to finish and i'm so excited to see what he has in store for us next. I have a two week transition period and will be going down there on Thursday for training and to pick up my very own laptop...yeah! And then starting the 10th will work 2 days a week here and commute the other 3. I can't even begin to tell you how incredibly blessed I feel and how excited I am for this opportunity. I give all the glory to God and know it is because of Him that this opportunity presented itself. I asked for His blessings and He has BLESSED us!!! I'm in awe of all He is continuing to teach me, but friends I can tell you this, that even at my lows when I question Him...he turns around and answers my prayers and remains to be Constant...even when I wander He is the same, today, and tomorrow!!! I will still struggle, but also grow and it is my prayer that I will continue to TRUST Him and let my story be used for His Glory!! So I thank you for all of your prayers and can't wait to fill you in on this exciting journey. Know that I am praying for all of you even if I don't know each of your names. I feel blessed to have "stumbled" across blogspot almost a year ago, created my blog, and have been blessed by so many of you whose blogs I read and whose stories have touched my life.

Friday, July 24, 2009

A Rainy Friday

This week has flown by!!! I'm thankful it is Friday and am looking forward to seeing my sister tonight! She's been gone for a week out east to meet her boyfriend's family and I'm picking them up at the airport tonight. We usually talk at least once a day even if it is for a couple of minutes and it's been weird not being able to this last week. Work has been rough only because I have so many projects to get completed and Monday should be the day I receive the "official" offer for my new job. As I said before I know God has a plan and I do have a peace about this new step but I'm also nervous about the decisions that will need to be made after everything is finalized...do we move...how far away...get a new car for me (Chad and I drive together to work)..childcare depending on how far we move, selling our home (which I love). So many decisions but I know it will all work out. The planner in me wants to have it all laid out in a neat timeline but I know we just need to take one thing at a time. Chad still works for our company in town so we don't want to move to far away because that would defeat the purpose but even if we could move 30 minutes south that would be great for my commute!! So if you could continue to pray for us as week seek God's direction I would greatly appreciate it.

It's great to be home tonight! I've been working late the past two nights and decided to work from home tonight so that I can spend some time with the boys before logging back in and going to the airport. They made me this beautiful stepping stone for Mother's Day and gave it to me today..I'll have to take a picture and post...it's so adorable! So a couple of weeks ago I started Thankful Thursday and then totally forgot about it...lol.. But here are a few things I'm thankful for this week:

* My best friend Carmen
* Clean water
* Baked Lays
* Music
* My boys' laughter

I hope everyone has a great weekend!! Please email or message me with any prayer requests. Prayer is so powerful and it is truly something I feel called to do for others. God BlesS!!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Trusting Him

It's been a few days since I've posted and as always I have so much to share/talk about. I'm not even sure where to begin... Friday (july 17th) was my due date and for the past few months I have been looking to that day with much anticipation...it's another date that has alot of meaning and emotion attached to it. I decided to take the day off and the following Monday as well. My best friend Carmen and her two kids flew up from San Antonio to be with me and we had a wonderful time with all of our kids and each other. Carm has been my best friend since we were 15 and has been there for me through everything. She flew up right after I had Mason and has been there for the many phone calls and tears along the way. Having her here this weekend was a blessing. She flew in Thurs evening and we got the kids all settled in. Friday morning I woke up and took Chad to work and then headed over to visit Mason. I miss him so much and my time at his gravesite was bittersweet. Carm and I spent the next few days playing with our children who got along great! We went to the zoo, a park, and for the most part just played outside at our home and spent every evening on the deck talking over a bottle of wine after the kids went to bed. She and the kids flew back to TX last night. Her husband is currently overseas and they are getting ready to move to Europe for three years next month. Luckily they have a long layover in Chicago so I will get to see her and the fam one last time before they make their big move.

Tonight I'm wide awake and can't sleep..should be and wish I could but can't. You see my company has been working with our parent company for the past 6 months on integrating under one umbrella and I was approached a couple of weeks ago about a job at our corporate headquarters in Chicago. I've gone through three interviews and they
all went very well. My to be manager is in Ireland this week but I'm supposed to hear back from her this coming Monday. I'm patiently waiting but am struggling on waiting! Patience has never been my strong point but I know God is teaching me to trust and wait on Him and this is the perfect example/opportunity to do just that. I keep hearing the song in my head..."While I'm waiting I will serve you..." I know He has an amazing plan for our family and I'm excited to see it revealed but am also a little nervous at all of the change this opportunity will bring to our family. So please be praying for us as we wait to see what God has in store. I truly feel after much prayer that this is where he wants me right now and am trusting that the details will all fall into place.

Lastly I watched the movie Fireproof with Carm while she was here and Wow!! It was really amazing...had so many good points and truly humbled me. I'm so excited to watch it with Chad as I think any marriage can gain wisdom from watching it. We are blessed to have a wonderful marriage and I'm so thankful to have a husband who is so supportive. I recommend this movie to everyone and can't wait to watch it again.

Well I'm finally starting to get tired but wanted to write a bit and let my thoughts out. I can't believe tomorrow is Thursday...today was my Monday so I'm all mixed up.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Blog Hop

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Monday, July 13, 2009

I'll Stand With my Arms Wide Open

Yesterday was an amazing day! So much so that I'm wide awake at 2:30 in the morning and felt lead to write it all down so I don't forget. It was a typical morning. I was up early, did a few loads of laundry and started to get the boys ready for church. We left earlier than we normally do and actually made it to church with extra time to spare. (that usually never happens..:). The worship was truly amazing and while I usually like every song we sing there was this verse in a song that God used to speak to me. "I'll stand with my arms wide open, All I have is yours" How precious that sentence has become to me within the last 24 hours. As I sang and lifted my hands I thought about all that sentence really meant. As I've shared in earlier posts prior to having Mason I did my best to control everything. I wanted to make sure my life was in "as much" order as possible and boy did I work hard to make sure I was doing a good job at it. I was so wrong and honestly quite exhausted taking on that task. God has taught me to let go and LET HIM. I'm not perfect and there are many days when it would be so easy to jump in and try and take back that false sense of control to make myself feel better, but as the verse stated this morning I choose to stand with my arms open and let all I have be His; my marriage, my life, my childrens' lives, my job, my finances, my words, and everything in between. While I was standing there singing out to him the tears were starting to come to the surface when I thought about giving Him my children's lives...all of them, Noah, Ky, and our precious Mason. Their lives aren't something I'm given to control, they are His and while I am put on this earth to parent them to the best of my ability and oh how I pray that will grow up to be Godly men I also know that He is watching over them and has an amazing plan for each of them. Mason's plan was much different that what "I planned"...I planned to have him and enjoy all of my days on this earth as his mom and while I will still celebrate being his mom, I don't have him here to watch grow like I do my other two boys. God had a different plan. I believe with all of my heart that God didn't plan for Mason to die and He has cried with me since day one, but God has embraced Mason into his dwelling place and my little man is experiencing life in a whole new way. He will have so much to teach me when I get to heaven and I while I selfishly pray that nothing happens to Noah or Ky I relinquish my false sense of control and Let God watch over them in a way I can't. I don't know if any of this makes sense on paper but my heart feels a peace it hasn't in a very long time and i'm so relieved to learn to let go of "something" that I never really had control of to begin with. I've learned today just how exhausting that task was and their has been a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. All day and even this morning I keep singing "All I have is yours". And I have a huge smile on my face while doing so and that my friends feels so good!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Thankful Thursday

I have had a lot of time to reflect the last few months since Mason went home to be with Jesus. There have been many moments where I cry out because I just want to hold him for one more moment, I weep every time I go to visit him at the cemetary, and I now amd more thankful for the simple things that I used to take for granted. I also appreciate the things I've always been thankful for even more. That being said I came up with the idea of Thankful Thursday. I think it is so easy to get caught up in what we don't have or what makes us upset, and I'm not exempt from these feelings. I'd like to use Thankful Thursday as a way to express what I'm thankful for every week. I'm going to start listing 5 things that I'm thankful for and would love to hear from you what you are thankful for. It could be anything, but hope in doing this fun exercise it will remind us of just how blessed we are. So here's to Thankful Thursday and below is what I'm thankful for this week:

1. Being able to carry Mason for 5 months
2. Coffee
3. The ability to run and let my emotions out.
4. Talking to God whenever I want to.
5. My childrens' smiles

Wednesday, July 8, 2009


Well I think I almost figured out McKlinky...lol... I'm off to work but am looking forward to hopping around tonight. I've also come up with the idea of Thankful Thursday and will be posting about that later.


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Trying Mclinky again..lol

Monday, July 6, 2009

Monday came to quickly!

Chad and I both woke up this morning wondering why we didn't take the day off...?!!! We had a wonderful long weekend, but it was so full of fun times we didn't do a lot of relaxing..:) Yesterday we went to my mom's for a 4th of July party with my siblings. It was so much fun! MY sisters' roomates from college were in town and came with her and we had some great laughs! I had a long day at work, after being out with the flu last week, but I'm so thankful for my job so I can't complain. I came home to a clean house. My husband blesses me each day with all that he does for our family!! Here are a few pictures from our wonderful week. Enjoy!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Happy 4th!

I hope everyone had a great 4th! Our was alot of fun. We have been looking at patio furniture for two years and I finally found the set I liked so we picked it up yesterday morning at 7:45...yes Home Depot is open at 6am! I love it:) My husband didn't but it was like Christmas and I was so excited I couldn't wait. We were supposed to take the boys boating with Noah's godparents but the forecast said it was going to rain all day so we ended up going to their place for lunch and hang out which was very relaxing! We made it home just in time for naps and then went over to my mom's to help her put up shelves and pictures in her new place. She's have a party at her place today to celebrate the 4th since all of my sisters were able to get today off and it should be a lot of fun!!! I'll make sure to post new pics afterwards.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Try try again.. :)

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I'm trying to figure out to link to Mclinky...here goes my second try at it..:)

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My son Kylan...

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