" I am the Lord. I change not." Malachi 3:6

Monday, February 27, 2012

Catching up...

I can't believe how long it has been since I actually sat down and wrote a post! I stop by at least a handful of times every week with every intention of writing a post and often begin one in my head but haven't been able to get one down on paper.  And to be honest I don't think it's a bad thing. I think back to when I started my blog and looking back am in awe of what God used this blog for. I truly feel that he brought Angie Smith's blog into my life to peek my interest and create my own. Little did I know that I would follow her and a couple of other women's blog and find myself in a simliar situation. That situation being one of loss. It was after Mason's death that I often would write for hours most of the time crying as I did. But the outlet this blog provided was profound for me. I didn't feel judged and felt like I could write my story and give it up to Him. Almost a year ago I felt like the Holy Spirit was prompting me to write this season of my life down in a condensed version to share with our church. I even talked to our pastor about it and was thrilled. But I didn't nor have I made the time to sit down and do it.  The funny thing is the Holy Spirit has continued to softly speak to me about doing it to the point that I hear it over and over now.  And now I have nothing but time. I fell down my garage stair (that's right one stair) on Feb 4th and broke my foot in four places. And can't go anywhere... I have a boot and crutches and am supposed to used the crutches at all times. This has brought my daily commutes to Chicago to a screaching halt and my travel plans for Feb/March went up in smoke.  But I had to laugh... I laugh because I know that God knows me all too well and knows that often times I have to be physically stopped to listen and be obedient.  Which brings me back full cirlce to my post today.  I've started reading my posts back from the beginning all the way to today and really make sure that i'm capturing all that needs to be shared.  I'm not a public speaker and honestly talk really fast when I get nervous. BUT i know that God has called me to share my story with others.  I know that He can move mountains and provide a peace that passes all understanding. I know this because he moved mountains in my life and has given me a joy that I know only comes from him. So i'm going to ask you to pray for me as I spend time in His word and rereading my posts. I know that reading them will bring up many painful days but I feel that I am in a place of peace and can be used for His kingdom.  I don't even know if any of you still follow since it's been so long but thought I would ask. The power of prayer is so amazing.  More posts to come as our family has enjoyed a wonderful six months! I still have my Napa trip to documents, our trip to South Carolina, and Disney over Christmas. So alot of my posts will be me catching up but I don't want to loose the memories we've made. I'm looking forward to orgranizing our pictures and giving my blog a face lift. :)